thankful.

love. family. friends. teachers. mashed potatoes. mom. dad. parker. little dogs. beans the cat. riley the cat. brother. ukelele. friend who gave me their old ukelele. sunflowers. any flowers. lavender hot chocolate. little bamboo plant. terri. love. my warm bed when i need it. musicians. actors. creators. anyone who creates no matter what that is. feelings. enemies. hard situations. kind words. hurtful words. my HEALTHY body. everyones whole health and being. the universe. the cosmos. the stars. the sun and moon. yogi tea bag quotes. photos. books. erika. lara. my expanding mind. ego. awakenings. skype. flannel shirts. sweatpants. 22. synchronicity and coincidences. ryry. gram's cards in the mail. halloween candy and card in a box with love from california. recalling. forgetting. change. fear. joy. understanding. not understanding anything. asking why. and how. and what next. and then letting go of the questions. alive. alive. alive. life. that swimming pool. lessons. not making plans. blogs. fans. beautiful supportive loving fans. the unknown. fear. fear. fear. so much fear. so you think you can dance. garageband. dailyom. a guided meditation. unexpected letters. 2nd chances. apple cider. 4th chances. creating something. letting it go. lavender oil. sage oil. deeep breathsssss.... "its amazing how you love..." i am still learning but you all have taught me so much. i love you all. kindness must spread. love love love.

always been there

be mindful of the now. it so easily slips away and days, weeks, months, years later we can snap back into it as we wonder what has happened in all this time that's flown by. and in that moment its not time to regret but to be empowered and inspired on what is possible. and make a commitment to fight the good fight for what you believe in, what you want, what you want to accomplish. because the little truth is we already have everything we ever wanted. and we already are exactly what we wanted to be. it all reveals itself when it reveals itself. never loose the faith. thats the gold, dudes. that's the real stuff. you can talk yourself out of it. but know that if you do you will eventually have to talk yourself back in- so why leave in the first place? we are strong. we are smart. we are beautiful. whatever all those things mean to you. believe it. create it. get up and do it. you have a choice to wait around for something to happen to you. you have a choice to make a choice and run around celebrating it. because whatever choice you make is the right one. its the one you make. believe. seriously. keep the faith. find the faith. rediscover the faith. its always been there. always will be. its just defining it for yourself so you can understand. it isnt anything but what you know it to be. there is love all around. look everywhere. you will find it. give it back. and it comes back to you. listen to your own advice. im trying.

says who

don't let yourself talk you out of doing something great. jump in!!!!! you will be very glad you did :) LOVE

worlds smallest dog

dont worry, his name is boo boo (AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH) i want to hang out with him. LOVE

yogi tea bag says:

listen and you will develop intuition

weekend music

some good tunes, dudes. if you have time this weekend and want to explore:
kings of convenience
ingrid michaelson
jamisonparker (i mean, shes a little dark, haha, but the music is justttt beautiful)
ahn trio
away we go soundtrack

there's much more where that came from. add to the list is you want!
LOVE

hey hey you you

make a commitment today to see the good, not the bad. cause there is usually about 100 good to 1 bad. try for real. you can do it i know you can :)

here's what i've learned #2

podcasts on itunes are amazing and free :)

in the midst

life is funny. sometimes things are tough. sometimes there's not a care in the world. the lows make the highs pretty incredible. but, in the midst of it all, we are okay. i am okay. you are okay. we will be okay. we ARE okay. right now. cause that's the only place we need to be. is here right now. but even when you are sure you've had a bad day, week, month, year: you are alive. you get this day. and in the midst of THAT you have a collection of things to be grateful for surrounding all that you are. like stars that follow over you and guide you and protect you and twinkle for you. so don't let the other stuff override the stars. they are the good stuff. and you will find yourself much happier paying attention to how bright they glow. look up! look up! look all around. see the love. feel the love. spread the love. i love you. and you are going to be okay.

fear

she is so real and alive. but only we can give life to her. and only we can breathe and let her go. why is it so much easier to allow her to live strong than to be done with her. or maybe letting her go is as easy as meeting her but i haven't mastered that part yet :) we are much stronger then we give ourselves credit for. we can always do anything we want. so how do thinks get in the way. and really get in the way! and we let them! its so rude. i vote no. and they somehow come back. but i am on my way to managing the thinks!!! i'm trying. in with deep breathes. out with fear. out, out, out with fear. you can do it too. LOVE

here's what i think #4

we are the luckiest people we know :) LOVE

here's what i think #3

the sooner you release all that doesnt serve you the sooner you let all the good that can in. let go to let in! LOVE

a little on now.

we keep moving through all the everythings. once we decide we arn't reversing: time, age, memories, what was... we learn to only fully move in the only direction available to us. and once we get enough forward momentum there isn't energy left to give to what was. could have been. should have been. living in all that lets you pass by all the now. like the long beach to jfk jetblue direct flight. you're in california and somehow five hours later you're across the country. but to think what you flew over in those 5 hours. how many peoples lives were going on just underneath you. many people were probably born. someone had a fight. someone made up. lives probably changed in some state. someone was probably moving. someone probably adopted a dog. granted you are not directly involved with all these events, or maybe you are, but things are always going on. in everyones lives. to live in yesterday, to live in last month, last year...allows you to not live in this day, this hour, this second. LOVE

here's what i think #2

breathing, a lot of it, is so good for you. the deeper the better. LOVE

here's what i've learned #1

ice does help. LOVE

here's what i think #1

having your morning coffee in bed is good for you :)LOVE

the world is absurd and beautiful and small

ok ani difranco is crazy amazing. she writes with a purpose and i could hear her play the guitar all the live long day. she writes coming from whatever place shes at. and never apologizes for that. i downloaded her newest itunes session and she talks about why she started to recently write joyful music. very inspiring. here are some fav lyrics of hers- some songs of hers i heard for the first time during special times or turning points in life so of course they are always close to my heart (and of course if i posted all my faves we'd be here all day)....

"i do it for the joy it brings
because i'm a joyful girl
because the world owes me nothing
and we owe each other the world
i do it because it's the least i can do
i do it because i learned it from you
and i do it just because i want to
because i want to..."
--joyful girl from living in clip

"...so i'll be outside, in love with the kind of beauty
it takes more than eyes to know
just show me a moment that is mine
its beauty blinding and unsurpassed
and i'll forget every moment that went by
and left me so half-hearted
cuz i felt it so half-assed..."
--half-assed from reprieve (this whole album is a.m.a.z.i.n.g)

"cuz the answer came like a shot in the back
while you were running from your lesson
which might explain
why years later all you could remember
was the terror of the question...
...and what do i do with all these letters
that i wrote to myself
but cannot address?"
--marrow from revelling/reckoning

"plus i have this whole new family
and i'm in love with each of them
and i'm on this list called lucky
whenever i'm in reach of them
and i'm learning how to say
that i'd be happy either way
with your love

i'm calling on the stars above

school is in session
get your chin off your desk
now pick up your pencil
turn over your test
use your education
and take an educated guess
about me"
-educated guess from educated guess (one of my favorite songs everrrrr)

"so i'm beginning to see some problems
with the ongoing work of my mind
and i've got myself a new mantra
it says: "don't forget to have a good time"
don't let the sellers of stuff
power enough
to rob you of your grace
love is all over the place
there's nothing wrong with your face
love is all over the place"
--present/infant from red letter year

"if you don't ask the right questions
every answer feels wrong
i was a terrible waitress
so i started to write songs..."
--hell yeah from out of range

"and god help you if you are an ugly girl
course too pretty is also your doom
cause everyone harbors a secret hatred
for the prettiest girl in the room
and god help you if you are a phoenix
and you dare to rise up from the ash
a thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy
while you are just flying past...

squint your eyes and look closer
i'm not between you and your ambition
i am a poster girl with no poster
i am thirty-two flavors and then some
and i'm beyond your peripheral vision
so you might want to turn your head
cause someday you might find you're starving
and eating all of the words you said..."
--32 flavors from not a pretty girl

ok thats all for now. oh yeah, LOVE

the hippie story

i'm allison. currently playing crissy in the broadway revival of HAIR.

one day you're invincible. one day they tell you you're not. but you realize you still are. but you begin to learn that this is all part of being invincible: bouncing back, keeping the faith, fighting the good fights, still being forever grateful. and knowing this too shall pass. i just started to undergo tests for a hip injury which has completely changed my life. literally one day everything changed. so here i can tell you whats on my mind, what the process is like and prove to you change doesn't mean bad. it means change. here we go...

here's a place to find randomness. inspiration (i hope). and who knows what else. i have no expectations. i only know i may have a lot to share during my hippie time.

i think you're great. LOVE